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about to lose it

so this thing with chick-fil-a is about to make me sick

chick-fil-a is my favorite place to eat and it doesnt bother me that the ceo stated his opinions. whatever, man. thats his view and i dont give a shit. he can think what he wants and i can think what he wants. he can be a heterosexual and i can be a pansexual. he can be like ‘marriage should be between an x and a y’ and i can want to be able to marry my girlfriend if ever thats what happens

i honestly do not give a shit what the ceo thinks. its fucking chicken. its fucking meals. IT IS A FUCKING RESTAURANT AND FOOD CANNOT PHYSICALLY TAKE A STANCE

i dont give a shit, i just want my chicken

but then people are blowing up

and my family is blowing up

they wont stop talking about it and theyre all like ‘hell yeah, way to be. theres hope for humanity yet’ and all kinds of things like that. theyre talking about how they hope chick-fil-a makes all kinds of money and things

i just

i want to cry

im being rejected by my family and they dont even know

it hurts so bad to have to hear this, about how ‘horrible’ gays are and that theyre abominations

‘they can express their views but we cant express ours?’

‘they want equality but we cant say what we want to?’

‘i dont donate to the united gay’

i just

i want to cry so bad. it hurts to hear all of this shit, to hear how much they hate me and they dont know they hate me because they think im straight. theyre busy bashing gays and basically anyone that isnt straight and cheering all this shit on

i dont care that thats how they feel, im gonna be gone in just a little bit

i just

cant they keep their hate to themselves please? it hurts not being able to be myself at home

fuck

liz, youre a horrible bitch and i love you

what is this shit you give me on a silver platter?! i mean oh my fuck im barely in and my feels are already going out to dirk

ugh my heart

i hate you

i hate you soooooooooo much for this

but thank god i love you because im still beta-ing for you

ugh

fuck my life

fuck this shit

my heart cannot handle this

imma have a heart attack

diabetes

im gonna murder somebody

shit that has actually been said

so my nephew was watching cartoons today and this conversation takes place

austin: i wish i could be a girl

me: why?

him: cause i dont want to be a boy

i didnt have the heart to tell him he could be if he really wanted to but it gives me hope. imma panny in a restrictive environment and here is my nephew wanting to be a girl. oh lord i wish i could let him be what he wants but i cant

still, though. hes 6 and wants to be a girl and hes in an extremely restrictive environment due to stereotypical, religious grandparents/uncle/dad/etc. im pretty sure im the only one willing to accept that kind of thing

//sighs

maybe one day i can introduce him to the world of loving yourself for who you are and feeling comfortable

cake

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is this normal?

so like its almost 3 am here and i finally have steady internet so im rping (karkat of course) and like it feels like hes my character. i mean, obviously hes not but like

i feel everything he does like one of my own. i see the shit he goes through and i just want to hug him and tell him its gonna be all vetter

see with my characters, i draw from my own experiences, my own inner pain, happiness, whatever. i mean, its definately THEIR own emotion because my characters are like my kids and stuff but the well is kind of me? i dont know how to explain it

but like im writing emotional shit and just sobbing. just fucking sobbing seeing how upset karkat is. i mean, theres self loathing in all my rps but in this one hes just drunk all the time and trying to drown out the pain of heartbreak, being a mutation of being a failure

and im just fucking sobbing

is this normal?! jesus fuck guys i cry over my characters and i fight with them but like kk is property of hussie

oh my gooooooooooooood someone make it stawp

question

kinda intimate so its under the cut

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my gay ass abscence

so vann is an idiot and she was on her pc talking to cake and being kawaii and everything was great. then her internet booted her the fuck off. well, my pc was showing that there were no internet connections. i was like ‘ok weird’ but whatever

well, the thing ON MY PC that CONNECTS me to a network to even get on the internet ended up deleted the fuck off my pc. i dont know how i did it but my bro did the same thing to his pc and he got it back in five minutes. its taken EVERYONE literally TWO DAYS to get this shit back on my pc

//sighs

in the mean time, i have discovered the BAD ASS game fate so if i disappear and dont post on here for awhile 1) im playing fate or 2) i fucked up my internet and im playing fate

also i ended up drawing… inappropriate things im not going to post :B plus apparently wendy and i have made a gay hammer and a saw that saws both ways? yeah… long story that involves the two of us shitting around prepping for her special ed thing. yeah…. shes officially awesome

i promise to update properly later. right now i need to go back to doing this

vann out

i shall be back motherfuckers

fandom-watch reblogged your audio post

are you fucking kidding me?

this is a blog dedicated to fandom drama

what the fuck man

this is complete bullshit really. like you have a BLOG dedicated to this?!

i didnt post that for you to make fun of and analyze

//growls in frustration

OH MY GOD

MY BROTHER’S GIRLFRIEND

WAS DOING 100 MPH IN A 55 MPH ZONE

OH MY GOD

HOLY SHIT

SHE COULD GO TO JAIL

WHAT THE FUCK MAN

//sighs deeply

well, if she DOES go to jail, looks like we’ve got another kid in the house

i just

what the actual fuck was she THINKING?! christ…

hamsteak

so im finally up to act four in my rereading of hamsteak

not to bad for shitty internets if i do say so myself

the trolls have JUST appeared

also, i didnt actually ever GET to cascade the first time around because i was trying to catch up rather quickly and skipped it. if someone could warn me about what page its on before i get to it, thatd be much appreciated

because i dont wanna get to it and then hafta leave, y’know?

so yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeah

updates

ok so my parents are going up to northwest this next week so i think imma be off. i mean, its not like i’ve been on all that frequent or anything like that but point being it’ll be much less cause i’ll have two little boys to take care of

bluh

i’ll let y’all know when i’m on again

alert

apparently my girlfriend got confused about the state locations and has been telling everybody im in alaska

im in fucking arkansas

arkansas

that is all

cakey, youre fucking cute <3

im going to die without proper internets to alleviate the temper that is my father in the mean time, imma post a couple of gifts i took pics of for cakey cause she isnt on skype